New Year Resolutions for 2009

Well, I am going to do my New Year Resolutions for this year and i hope it really gets done, not just write for fun.. Hahaz!

1) Do well for my studies in UQ, must work really hard to score and do well so that i do not waste my parent's money and have no regrets at the end of they day.

2) Be less snappy at people, must watch how i respond to others so i will not hurt them.

3) Continue to be active in sports, go for trainings and stuff.. When in UQ can join some activities to keep myself active.

4) Continue to love my family and friends, treasure them always.

5) Continue to keep in touch with all my friends from both secondary and polytechnic.

6) Take part in races or marathons in Australia.

7) Continue to eat healthy and live healthy!

8) Must always remember to stay happy and cheer up no matter what, cause life is short, so no time to wallow in sorrow but only to celebrate in joy.

9) MUST, DIE DIE MUST bake and cook in Australia, make good use of ALL the recipe books i got for Christmas in 2008.

10) Just make the best out of every situation, make 2009 a memorable yet interesting year!

The only regret i am going to have is that i cannot celebrate my 21st Birthday in Singapore.. 20/09/2009,HOW MUCH NICER CAN THE DATE GET?!?!?!?!?!

Oh wells, i am sure it will still be a memorable one, because i know that 2009 is going to be a great year as i embark on a new journey.. And i am going to have Xue Ying with me in Australia, so it will be superb!

So happy new year everyone! I wish all of you the best of health, luck, love and prosperity! May we all have a superb year ahead of us and have no regrets when we look back.. =)

A closure to 2008

Well, its the end of 2008 and i would like to do a long summary of what has happened in this year..
1) I came back from Shanghai, back to the sunny island and the comfort of my family and friends...
2) I graduated from polytechnic and have obtained my well-deserved diploma...
3) Became a super big ba zhang when i just came back from Shanghai weighing 59kg, but now i am at 54kg..
4) Started working more often to earn money if not i would have no income..
5) Went to book for driving test with Evelyn on Valentine's Day and spent it with my babes..
6) Got involved back into band, went with them into the SYF Outdoor Competition 2008...
7) Got myself into a relationship i have been looking so forward to. Though things did not work out, I have no regrets cause at least we tried...
8) Celebrated my 20th Birthday with friends and family, where i got super wasted for the first time in my life...
9) Learn driving from a screwed up instructor and then changed to a better one thankfully..
10) Voiced out how i really felt with my besties and brought the friendship to another level..
11) Waraku Ladies Night sessions with my poly babes and became so much closer and bonded together..
12) I completed 5 races, NUS Biathlon, New Balance Inter-College Biathlon, Army Half Marathon, Quadrathlon and Standard Chartered FULL MARATHON with a timing of 5:19:25
13) I passed driving on my first attempt!!
14) Became closer to a few secondary school buddies with more gatherings..
15) Attended my VERY FIRST OCS Social Night..

2008 has been really fulfilling to me.. Gained more experiences in a whole year.. More great memories, lessons and a great journey in life, love, friendship and education.. I have went through the really ups and really downs.. When i was down, i always had something or people to bring me up.. So i want to thank those who have been there, in random order..

My Brother (i miss you), Cousins Leslie and Dennis, Charity, Lisa, Ian, Mark, Nigel, Delong, Syafiq, Rennie, Khairul, Candice, Shi Hui, Chaplin, Keng Kee, Jaren, Swee Kee, Hazel, Xue Ying, Evelyn, Tang, Annette, Wilson, Chee Chin, Coach, Grace, Thomas, Yan Ling, Patricia, Tiong Han, Darren, (basically the whole Tri Team), Edwin, Chen Pei, Mr Poh, Syafiq, Norman, Felix, (basically the band peeps and trumpet juniors close to me) and not forgetting the most important peeps in my life, MA and PA!

It is because of ALL OF YOU, that is why i had such a fruitful year.. Hanging out together, being there when i am down, cheering me up when i am upset, running marathons with me (EVEE), going training with me (Yan Ling), being crazy together and so much more.. From the bottom of my heart, i truly truly thank all of you and no words can express how grateful, blessed and thankful i am to have s0o0oo0o0o0o0o many angels in my life... With angels like all of you, what more can i ask for?

I love all of you, truly do... Take care and please keep in contact, because want to keep all my angels with me, to keep guiding me and to show me the path to take in times of need.. I wish all of you all the best, may 2008 be a great year for you all as it has been SUPERB for me..

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!

Update about me..

Okie, for those who i have fooled long enough, i have passed my driving test!! 6 points!! Hahaz... And i DID not wear short skirt or some revealing wear okie.. Hahaz!!

Haiz, band has been bad for me so far.. I mean, i do enjoy going back, teaching the juniors, hanging out with the alumni.. But the trumpet juniors has been in some way killing me..

I do not ask for rewards, i do not need you guys to thank me and treat me like some saint... All i want is to see you guys put in the effort to improve, to strive for the better.. Things like being keen to learn, remembering things that are taught, COMING for band practices and so much more.. I am not paid to come back, when i come back i am not able to work and i will not see you guys at SYF Indoor 2009 cause i will not be in Singapore.. But i want to help you all because i know that it will benefit you people in some way...

Today i went back, asked you all a VERY simple question.. Why do you come for band? The answers i got were stunning:
1) Don't know
2) Cause no choice, it is my cca
3) Got interest in music
4) Like to play the band music
5) Can learn music

The ironic part is those who said they got interest in band, their attendance is HORRIBLE... I mean, if you REALLY LOVE band, you would come right?! Its like why i come back? Because of the passion i have, the passion to teach you guys, to hear band music, to see you all improve and make it in life..

Then again, Charity said something really wise to me.. Maybe because you hold too much an expectation of them, thats why you get more disapponted.. Maybe i really have been too harsh on them, maybe i am the one who cannot teach well, maybe the main problem lies in me... Maybe i should just not come back and help since i am not helping them in any way.. I am tired and disappointed..

Everytime i go back for band, its like tearing up a wound that has not healed once again... But i still do it over and over again, because I JUST WANT TO SEE YOU GUYS MAKE IT IN LIFE...

A night to remember.. 19th Dec 2008

I went for my very FIRST OCS Social Night last night!! The honour was given to me by my really close bud Mark! It was really spendid and i had the greatest of time.. I was super duper nervous can! Even more nervous then when it was our prom night!!

It started off with frenzy preparation work done by my two besties Lisa and Charity! Lisa came super early to straighten my super furball like hair.. Charity came later to finish up by tying my hair and doing my make up.. Thank you babes so much for pushing aside your agenda for the day and decided to help me.. I really appreciate the effort and am very VERY thankful to you both..

Without the two of you, i would look like the same old me, with nothing special.. Thanks to both of your SUPERB SKILLS that has made me look so different till i really cannot believe it.. Hahaz!! You babes are really loved by me and you know i super mean it... =)

Mark was being the best gentlemen i have ever came across with holding the door for me, taking the food or drinks, giving up his seat for me and etc.. I guess that is what a guy is expected of during Social Night? Hahaz!! We took alot of photos and had great chats..

Then we headed off to meet Delong after the event is over and we watched the movie Twilight.. I think it is a great show, provided you have not read the book.. After that we went for supper and then headed to send me home... So many great memories i had which i shall keep for life!!

It is getting real late and i need to sleep like pronto!! Hahaz.. Been the best best best "date" ever... =)

I can PROUDLY say i have been to Social Night.. =)

Finally we caught up!!

I had a really salty dinner last night, but the company was great.. Went to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe to have dinner with Lisa and Charity.. I ordered the century egg congee which was not bad, except for the fact it was super salty!! Hahaz... Other than that, Lisa's and Charity's food look superbly good and tasted great too!!

As usual we were all talking to loudly, or rather Charity got too excited and we started to squealing again.. Hahaz.. There were these 3 working adults that kept staring at us lah!! super embarassing, but i am glad we are used to it.. Thats the amazing part when we are together, no matter how noisy, high pitched or loud we are, we will just not really care about it!!

Then we headed to Starbucks cause Charity needed her dosage of TOFEE NUT LATTE.. Hahaz.. It smells really superbly nice, but a little to sweet for me.. Hahaz.. Then we were lost, not knowing where to go, we went to Lisa's house in the end... Cause Charity miss Porche so much she needed her dosage of her! Hahaz...

Then at Lisa's place, we started to like go on a mass makeover for me... Hahaz.. Ear ring, clutch bag, dress, straightening of the fur ball which is my hair and make up.. It was super hilarious, i think i am just not suited for make up.. I look like somebody who just got punched in the face... Hahaz!!

Then Lisa's brother was nice enough to send us home!! I am so glad we met up, i am really sorry if i have been very attitude.. I am just really super happy that we managed to clear things up in some way and give me time... I love you babes alot, you babes know it.. =)

Meeting up with my poly babes!!

I had a very great dinner to start my week last night.. I thank all of you, Candice, Shi Hui, Swee Kee and Hazel... That you babes for always taking time out to meet up no matter how busy or tired you babes are.. With work, personal life or studies, you babes always make it a point to meet up and have dinner at our favourite hang out, WARAKU!! The ladies night is seriously a VERY good deal!! Hahaz!! It just sucks that when we meet up, i am out of 3 times, 2 times sick.. That really is super dao mei.. Hahaz...

I ordered cold noodle on a cold day! How ironic right!! Hahaz.. But with enough wasabi, even the worst blocked nose will be cleared in an instant!! Hahaz!! Next time, instead of carrying a tube of the vicks nose inhaler thing, everyone should try carrying a tube of wasabi and eat it when your nose is blocked.. A small portion would do, small little portion to clear the worst blocked nose!! Hahaz...

We had a great chat, and great exchange of presents!! I am so so guilty please, cause i am the only one who really did not get anything for anyone! Sorry ah, super broke and super budget now.. Have not worked for 3 weeks le, means no income!! I thank all of you for the great time and great presents.. I have a 'booky' Christmas this year! Hahaz!!

Shi Hui gave me 2 books based on real life accounts, Candice gave me 2 asian recipe books, Swee Kee got me a notebook.. Hahaz! Hazel, thanks for the really interesting bitchy office gossips!! Hahaz.. Like it is going to really be a BOOKY Christmas!! Thank you all so much, I LOVE YOU BABES TO THE SMALLEST MICROSCOPIC BITS!!

Thank you babes sincerely from the bottom of my heart.. =)

Movie with deep meaning..

If you are intending to watch The Day That Earth Stood Still, please read this entry AFTER you have watched.. =)

Okie, today i spent my day eating and writing Chrsitmas cards for my working colleagues.. Oh my goodness, sriting the cards require so much brain juices and now my brain is so so fried!! Hahaz!!

Received a sms from my son Khairul in the late afternoon to watch a movie.. Decided to say yes since i am free and i would love to spend some time out with friends rather then be alone at home.. Since my brain was so fried, a movie would be great! Hahaz.. Went to catch the movie The Day That Earth Stood Still with Chang Yuan and Qi Zheng as well..We met up, had dinner, gossip here and there, watched the movie and headed home..

The movie has a deep meaning to it, at least to me.. It talks about how we humans have become, a specie that can be so hopeless at times.. We have become species that has been psycho-ed that alien invasion would only be evil.. The word INVASION says it all.. This would then resort to us using violence and weapons to counter attack this "invasion".. Even if they are here to save us or try to save us, we have become so wary of one another that we bring up our defence wall a little too soon..

Also, it talks about how we humans are only willing to change only when faced with great danger or the brink of death.. We tend to be so full of ourselves, thinking that we are the greatest and the smartest.. This will be a major factor for the downfall of us humans.. It is the same as only when someone is about to die, they say their whole life flashes through their eyes and they start to regret things that they did or did not do.. The irony of life, it is so full of regrets, yet it is so fulfiling!

It is like only when you have lost someone then you tend to treasure.. When you know a friend or family member is on the brink of death then you start to spend so much time with them.. This is what i call "crash course".. You combine the time you INTEND to spend with the person and spend the most amount of time possible.. Talking about this, i have not visited my nanny for ages man...Darn!

Now to think of it, i don't know what i am writing.. Like no link!! Hahaz.. Oh wells, my little thoughts floating around in my head.. I just want to have a great end to the year 2008, and a great beginning for year 2009 before i leave.. =)

Little thoughts..

So today i went for driving in the afternoon nd again my mind was not really focusing.. Like made alot of mistakes and i am very pissed with myself for being such a blur cock.. Oh wells..

After driving i met up with my son!! Hahaz!! It was a rather last minute plan but i had a GREAT chat with him.. Talking about the past, the present, did not really go to the future though.. Hahaz... There is so much that we can talk about when we are just catching up with one another.. We went for late lunch at like 4 and then headed to Coffee Bean to slack.. I ordered a Machiatto which i thought would come in a regular coffee mug, but i was so wrong.. It came in a expresso cup which was super small.. But it is super potent and super shoik! If you are not a coffee lover, then this is not your thing! Hahaz..

Anyway I went for Ian's POP yesterday and i must say, it is much better than the Home Team Academy... Hahaz... At least they are more organized and the commands are given with more commanding presence... I am so proud of Ian to have survived NINJA!! Wishing him all the best and i truly hope he will get into wherever he wants to be in.. =)Went to the POP with Ian's mum and we chatted like best friends please! Hahaz.. Then aunty made a comment, that now she finally gets to meet her friends again, catching up after not meeting up for a super long time..

This got me wondering, is this part and parcel of life?In secondary school, you see your friends daily in school, or class or even in your co-curricular activites.. After school you guys might hang out and on weekend might even meet up.. You spend most of your time with your friends.. Then you move on to college, tertiary or start working.. If you move on to the same place, good for all of you as you still get to see one another..

But if you go your seperate ways, then things are different.. You make new friends, you have different time-table and activities, different commitments.. Lifestyle has changed, things have changed.. You have more things to handle and have less time for one another.. More friends in your social life, more activities in your life and etc.. Hence you meet up lesser as compared to secondary school years as we are all so busy..

Then when all the education is achieved, you move on to building your career, getting married, having kids and completing a family.. Priorities has changed, family and work comes in first, friends are placed aside.. Not because you want to, but because you have to in order to have sufficient time for your kids and spouse.. Not forgetting your parents and siblings.. You RARELY get to meet up with your friends as you are so overwhelmed with all these on hand.. Not meeting up can range from months to years.. This, is a common sight...

Then once your children are big enough, they move on with life, get busy with their own friends and activities, you are more stable with work, more slack as well, you have more time to yourself.. That is when friends come into the picture again.. You get to meet them again, catch up with one another after many years and see how each has changed or moved on...This is a very common sight..

At least for me when i see my parents.. It is nothing to be sad about, nothing much that can be done, but how i so wish i could make a difference.. That no matter what, i would always have time to meet up with my friends, without having to sacrifice family or work.. But then again, in reality, we do not live in a perfect world..

Sometimes the things that we want so much might not be what others want as much.. Don't you agree?

Priceless timing and face!!

Hahaz!! I did a
5:19:25

Yeah man!! And i am on page 3 out of 15!! 295 out of 1550!! I could not have done it without EVEE AH!! Hahaz!!Look at my horible face man!! Can check it out...

http://www5.marathon-photos.com/scripts/event_entry.py?job=Sports/2008%20Sports/Singapore%20Marathon

The face of AGONY and PAIN! Hahaz.. Was shouting my way through the finishing line ah.. So super UNGLAM!!

But i am SUPER HAPPY!! And i don't care about the unglam-ness!!

Standard Chartered Marathon 2008

Yesterday was seriously a super exciting and anxious day for me.. Actually, for many of usi guess as we tok part in the Standard Chartered Marathon 2008.. I decided to take up the challenge and achieve my personal goal of doing the full marathon as i have already done the 10km and half marathon few years back.. So its time to take it a notch higher and go all out for it.. It turned out so great, it has been one of my best races ever.. And i seriosly cannot have done it without my bestest running buddy, Evelyn...Thank you Evee!! I know you were super tired, but it was even more tiring trying to get me going!! But you did your best and it really kept me going strong!! MUACKS!! I LOVE YOU!! =)

Evelyn is ALWAYS the one to run with me during long distances.. I remember our very first time was Standard Chartered 2006, where we both took part in the Half Marathon Category.. She was there to cheer me all the way.. Then last year as i was in Shanghai, i was unable to take part in the marathon.. So this year, we ran 2 races together, Army Half Marathon and Standard Chartered Full Marathon..

Evelyn, i am so thankful and grateful to be blessed with YOU as my friend, buddy, nd simply a person whom i can trust so much.. You never fail to help me brighten my day when i needed it, lend me a listening ear when i was so desperate for it, supporting and being there for me during good and bad times, always encouraging and pushing me on during races and so much more.. No words can express my gratitude and respect that i have for you...

A close babe that is always so caring and loving.. One that i know does not pretend but is always genuinely herself.. I admire your character, the way you can gain the trust of others, the way you always show concern for others, the charitable heart that you have to be willing to help others even though you might have problems of your own.. You my friend, you my running buddy, you my babe, YOU are my idol.. =)

There was this point where i was so close to giving up, because Evelyn was quite ahead of me and my knees were in pain.. But seeing her turning back to look for me kept me going.. I know she has got my back, i know she is looking out for me.. I told myself, "Evelyn has accompanied you to run this race, all the more you should push yourself and go on, no stopping, no walking, just keep running..."

And it worked after a while.. It was tough as i wanted to go faster, but my legs would not respond.. Walking to rest was not an option, as when you walk, it is more painful then when you run.. And when you walk, once you run again, your knees would be in excruciating pain.. That was what both of us went through yesterday.. Thinking about it, it was quite funny...

The last 3km seems to be like a never ending run.. We just kept going, but it seems so far far away.. That last bit of the race was horrible i say! Hahaz.. Until we reach the bridge towards Fullerton, we heard people cheering for us.. Not just ordinary people, but my teammates, I could hear Kai Wen shouting at the top of her voice, Tiong Han, Anette, Xue Ying and Coach too.. I was too tired ti really look who was present, but to all of you there yesterday, a BIG SINCERE THANK YOU!! Your voices gave me a very very needed boost of energy, and it works better than eating 10 powergel.. Hahaz!

When we were reaching the finishing line, i was singing along with the songs that were being played.. At the very end, Evelyn and i held hands in like the very first time we completed our half marathon and i shouted out loud to express my sense of accomplishment! It was super duper shoik! My legs were super numb, tired, painful and just cui-ded, but i still had the energy to shout as i was not that out of breath..

When i crossed the finishing line, HAND IN HAND with Evelyn, i felt such a huge accomplishment that i had to hug Evelyn.. I would not have done it within 5hours and 21minutes.. This is a timing that i am so so so satisfied with.. Nothing more i can ask for, because i already had the best of everything yesterday..

I had the best weather, i was at my best state of mind, i had the best companionship, i finished within the timing i wanted to complete and i did my very very best..

Catching up...

Today i woke up late for driving.. Had a bad start, driving lesson was rather upsetting too.. In some way i just was not focused enough.. Oh wells.. Then headed home, had lunch with my mum and headed towards my grandmother's house..

Then went to take my pay and then did some Christmad window shopping on my own.. Then went home, managed to escape from the heavy downpour..

Dinner was at Pasta Mania! Met my son for dinner!! We ate, sat and chit chat for super long before deciding to leave.. It was great to have seen you son, updating one another about our lives.. Juat remember, cheers and smile cause you know i have got your back!! And yes, you are my ultimate choice.. =) You know what i mean..

Don't know why these few days like eat le very fast hungry.. Think i going through puberty again.. Hahaz!!

I am back in town!

I have been super duper lazy to blog recently.. Hahaz.. After coming back from the Genting trip, i have been busy catching up with the sleep i have lost, giving out the food i have bought, unpacking my items and just going out.. During this trip i learned many things in life.. In my life of course.. So many things has been happening that it is quite overwhelming for me..

Wha, this trip has been packed with work, fun, thick-skiness, food, starvation and just simply really screwed up planning.. Oh wells, that is life right.. Wha, because of irregular meals i think i like shrunk.. Could not believe it when i took my weight and it was like 53.7KG?! I really cannot believe it sia.. Hahaz!! I still think the weighing scale spoil...

But then ah, i think i within one day put the 2KG all back in.. Wha, breakfast eat Club Sandwich, Beh Teh Soh and Penang Tau Sah Piah.. Then met Ian for lunch and had a 6-inch Subway Club.. Walked around with him and headed home.. Ate a pack of Strawberry Hello Panda and drank a big bowl of soup.. Then at night met Rennie to have dinner at Vivo City.. Ate the famous fried fish bee hoon soup, then buy the super nice butterfly and tapioca which went into the stomach.. Then headed to the cinema to watch Four Christmases and bought a popcorn combo.. LIKE LITERALLY ATE THE WHOLE DAY!! Hahaz!! Thanks to Rennie lah, influence me to buy.. Must stop me from temptation!! Hahaz.. But who cares, life is short, just eat... Hahaz..

Oh, Four Christmases is a show really worth watching... Its so perfect for this Christmas mood.. Hahaz.. I am so in the mood to just shop around, bake, decorate the house and just make the many many gifts i have in mind.. I have a few movies in mind, Quarantined, Bolt, Body of Lies and so many more to come!! Hahaz... Will catch them soon.. I am so into the mood of Christmas right now.. But i am so super broke.. =)

Looking forward to the training this week and definitely not forgetting the race i have been looking so forward to... Standard Chartered Full Marathon!! Cannot wait to start and finish the run with darling Evee by my side!! Hope you are great babe, have not heard from you for quite a while.. You are missed.. =)

And i miss my son too. =)

Genting trip..

Today is the 2nd day of the Genting Trip.. Reaching here has been a mess with really bad planning.. Reached at like wee hours in the morning at 4am and we onl got our rooms at 1pm in the afternoon.. Was literally freezing our asses off upon reaching Genting..

I am now supposed to prepare the extremely last minute emcee speech that they did not prepare.. But i efficient, so i am done.. Now just waiting for people to check it once through.. Blogging and using the interet access here is though man, i got to act as if i am busy doing research for the script.. Must maximise my opportunity to use the internet!!

Food here has been horrible tasting and expensive.. I am just glad about this morning's breakfast.. Something close to home, bread and strawberry jam or butter.. Then got cornflakes and honey stars!! Hahaz.. I just hope i can survive till the end of this week, with such oily and msg-fied food, sure to gain weight.. Moreover i not training this week sia!! Full marathon is like next week!! I so want to survive and look good!! Hope everything would be better..

The thing that cheered me up is i bought a pack of nice biscuits here!! Hahaz.. So now i have 2 types from Singapore and one from Malaysia! Its those look like a little bump kinda biscuit.. =)

I am so glad that i have friends with me on this trip.. Even though most are couples, it beats being alone.. Hahaz.. Just wanna keep my fitness to tip top, don't fall sick and reach back Singapore safely i would be very contented le.. Ask me run here run ther, i am so fine.. Take it as i am doing speed sets can le.. Hahaz..

To my besties, babes and friends back in Singapore.. Wha lau, just 2 days and i miss you all.. Think i go Australia will emo again sia.. Hahaz!! Take care friends, i will be back soon and we can catch up!! Lisa, all the best for your exams.. Ian, i miss you.. Haven't seen you in weeks!! If you all want food like beh teh soh, chewing gums and stuff, tag me.. No promises, but i will try okie.. =)

I AM GOING TO MAKE THE BEST OUT OF THIS TRIP!

Satisfying Day!

Just finished packing my bag for tonight's trip to Genting.. Then i noticed it was 4pm already and the uncle started to ring his bell!! Faster took orders from my parents and i went to buy $1 Ah Pek Ice-cream!! Had a cone with 4 scoops of ice-cream!! So fattening can, but satisfying..

Went for a 20km run this morning with a few team mates.. Yanling had been a dear for running with me and keeping me company.. She even help me plan my route back! Hahaz.. Thanks babe, love ya!! The sun was so unforgiving today.. We were all literally sizzling under the heat.. I felt like a piece of fat bacon being placed on a very hot pan and the oil all being squeezed out of me.. Hahaz!! Ran for about 2 hours under the hot sun..

After that we went to shower at Thomas place and Delong came to pick Rennie and me up.. Headed to Temasek Polytechnic, met Lisa, printed some stuff and off we went to Cafe Cartel for me to get my PORK FIX before going to Genting!! Hahaz!! I ate a WHOLE plate of Hawaiin Pork Chop, 1 spicy wing and 4 pieces of bread with butter!! Was SUPER hungry please!!! But then once i finish eating i was super darn full lah!! Guilty too ah.. Hahaz.. But all in my stomach le, and i am super happy, so i do not really care!! =) Delong DECIDED to treat us so i shall give him face!! =p

Then we headed off to Ikea to walk walk and get some stuff.. So Lisa got her Christmas Decor, Delong got his pillow case, I had to get something too!! Saw this toiletries bag on our way out and i was contemplating whether to get not... In the end, just buy!! Hahaz!! Was about to walk off when i BLUR, kick against the side of the cart and my little toe started bleeding.. DARN it man! I was super in pain lah!!Lisa and i then faster went to the nearest toilet which was the handicapped one, then we were in there for a while to clean up the blood and stuff when we heard the someone trying to open the door... We ignored and i continued to clean my toe.. Then when we went out, there was a guy on a wheelchair and he was giving us THE STARE..

I would not blame him lah, cause it is our fault.. Sorry.. But at that point of time i just wanted to clean the ozing blood so yeah...Then Lisa treat us to Ikea ice-cream which is so gross to me! Hahaz.. I appreciate the love babe, but one man's meat is another man's poison lah ah.. =)

Then we headed home, and i started to do my final packing, and got the DARN good ah pek ice-cream that i love so much since young.. I was burning under the sun for 2 hours today and managed to put back all the fattening food back in within an hour..

So ironic how life is sometimes.. Takes you an hour to burn 300 plus calories, 1 minute to put it all back in.. What the hell man.. Hahaz...I am so excited for the trip!! Going to be an Emcee again for this event.. Looking forward to all the fun, cam whoring and food coming along!! See, food again.. Hahaz.. It would be even better if Lisa and Charity could join me.. =) IF ah...

Thanks everyone whom i saw today, from teamates, to secondary school pals.. Thanks for the really great, tiring yet satisfying day i had today!! =) Love ya all!!

8 X 800M Shoik AH

Today was a really painful set to have done.. But i am so super duper proud of myself to have completed it, and even better at a faster timing.. I think it was due to the cool though humid weather today.. These are my timing for every 400m... Every rest interval of 1min 30secs..
1) 4.23.99 Forgot to take the first 400m.. -___________-''

2) 2.06.16
3) 2.07.31

4) 2.06.84
5) 2.07.79

6) 2.04.99
7) 2.08.28

8) 2.07.60
9) 2.06.85

10) 2.10.29
11) 2.08.75

12) 2.07.95
13) 2.08.21

14) 2.08.88
15) 2.08.45

16) 2.07.03
17) 2.01.01 (this one SUPER fast can, cause got tough senior to guide me through!! Hahaz!!)

It is super duper painful, i can tell you i run until i cannot feel my legs and i was GASPING for air!! But it was DAMN shoik!! Hahaz.. Tiring, but really satisfying!! I am so thankful and grateful for all those who always give me the cheers and strength to boost me on!! =)

Okie, i better go offline cause i got to work tomorrow.. 1 more day Sheryl!! You can do it!!

Where is the old me?

I have become more down and sian recently.. And i seriosly do not know why.. Things has been happening, people come and go in my life.. Working collegues, team mates, secondary school mates and poly mates.. So many people come and go in your life, some stay and some go, but whatever it is, you will never be able to take away the great memories that you have of each and every one..

I have not been going for training on a regular basis anymore.. I used to go every week, even though my batch has graduated, the guys in army, the females working or studying... Alot of my friends tell me, you graduate already, no need to go mah.. Yes, i know i graduate le, and i really do not need to go, but i enjoy that feeling when you train with your teammates, you push them on, they push you on, and we all feel super tired after the workouts.. That feeling is really shoik and indescribable.. It is really the one for all, all for one feel.. Coach will push all of us to our limits, and we would go all out..

I need to find back that NEED to go training.. I NEED it so badly.. I want to go training, my mind tells me to, but my body gives up on me.. This is the same for work...Working is much different though.. Alot of the old friends are gone le, left with alot of new people.. And those that i am close to already long gone, i am still working.. I still like the job that i am doing, but i have to admit, the people working with you makes a whole lot of difference..

I should stop wallowing and sink deeper into unhappiness.. I should be happy, CHEER UP SHERYL!! Compared to all those poor army men having training, you know you are much better off than them.. At least you got civilian life.. SMILE SHERYL!! This week is going to pass fast with training and work!! Like 2 days or working, 1 day of training, 1 day to meet Ian and Dylan and you are off to Genting!! Smiles!! =)

Great day!

Today was a super interesting day for me.. First i had driving, so i went into the circuit for the very first time!! Very kan chiong ah, so need to keep my cool man.. Then after that went for training and OMG! So long never train ah, today run in such a humid weather, i swear it was so hard to breathe!! Then we did the most sadistic number of push-ups and dips in the fastest time until my arm cramp! Hahaz..

Oh! Then i saw Mr Tan Ting Xuan lah! Like SUPER DUPER long never see him le.. Hahaz.. I just came out of the shower room when i saw him and the usual me just shouted his name.. Like super loud and i was super paiseh... Hahaz!!

Then after that Tiong Han and I went on a mission.. Named mission birthday cake! Hahaz.. It was super funny that we had to sing happy birthday like 3 times in total and we also had 2 cakes for him.. BOTH is COFFEE cake can.. Cause we all know he LOVES his coffee.. Hahaz..

After that went Rennie's place as his mum just came back from Macau.. She bought me 2 BOXES of almond biscuits, 1 pack of almond brittle and 1 box wife biscuit!! Then she also gave me a papaya!! Wha, all my faourite food man! So feel the love please!! Hahaz!! She is really a very nice, warm and hospitable lady...

So here is the really great team that i am proud to be part of it.. Missing coach out cause she taking the photo for us...

Catching up...

Today i had a GREAT dinner at Waraku East Coast with Candice, Shi Hui, Swee Kee and Hazel!! It was a great time spent together and it was really worth it with the 50% discount for ladies.. I had a BIG bowl of really salty ramen... Hahaz.. Super duper salty please..

Really big bowl, very nice ramen, shoik melt in the mouth pork meat and fats...

Updated one another about our life.. But like most of the updates are from my side.. Think i talk too much, never give my friends chance.. Hahaz.. So feel the love when Candice and Shi Hui say i am a girl who is easy to please.. =) Thanks babe...So a little photos to share the love.. Love you babes!!

Candice and me!!!
Swee Kee, Me, Hazel, Candice and Shi Hui!!

We should have more Waraku sessions before i leave.. Or we can just gather together more often and be happening!! =) Wish the best for you babes in your current jobs..Smiles babe, love you all always.. Thanks for spending such a great time with me today, i really enjoyed myself..

Different Perspective

Friends

You do your own thing, i do my own thing.. When we are both free, then we catch up and spend some time together.. In time to come i guess, when all the awkward-ness is gone... =)

That is how it is meant to be all along.. But this will take some time for things to get back to normal.. But i am glad i have so many friends around me!! I have no regrets, because at least we have tried.. I won't lie that it hurts, but i know i will get through it.. Chocolate works wonders!!

It is the same as looking at a glasa half full, or half empty... To me, its half full!! =)

1st November 2008

I do not even know if i am strong enough, all i know is that it is better for both of us.. Just hope that we can go back to old times, where we are STILL Bitch and Bastard, having fun and joking around... Then again i tell myself, things change, people change, so suck it up Sheryl...

This marks the end of a sweet journey, but defines a new beginning in my life...

Promise

I love this song please, it means so much!! That we should just go our way and not be affected by whatever or whoever that comes out way!!! =)

What you think about this?
I been holding it in now I'm letting it flow
What you think about this?
I'm gonna do my own thing yeah I'm flying solo so
Don't tell me how its gonna be
On my own
And the thing of it is
There's nothing round here that I'm gonna miss
Cause you're holding me down
I just wanna fly
There comes a time when I gotta say goodbye
To the life that you see me in
Here's where I begin

And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me

There's a voice in my head
Telling me come on, come on, move on
There's a voice in my head
Telling me I know my right from wrong
They say what doesn't kill you can
Make you strong
Now I know what it means
You can try to bend but you ain't breakin my dreams
I'll be making mistakes
Comin up at a loss
I'll be tumbling down
But Like MC shake it off
I'll stay cool cause I know who's boss
Of me, myself, and I

And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me

I'll keep movin even when the beat is gone (I will)
I'll keep doin what i got to do to carry on (I will)
So don't hold me down cause i'm gonna fly
and the time has come and gotta say goodbye
To the life that you see me in
Here's where I begin

And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me

Update

I am still alive people.. Missing my friends.. Lisa, Charity, Candice, Shi Hui, Swee Kee, Hazel and so many more.. Just got to meet up and catch up soon...

Missing Nigel, Mark, Ian, Delong, Chaplin, Keng Kee and so many many more..

Not having the best of time now, but i am glad for a great friend who has stood by me for these few weeks.. You know who you are, owner of Fei Fei.. =)

First Quadthlon

Today i survived my first Quadthlon with my relay partner Gregory! I am just so glad that we all crossed the finishing line.. The swim was really good as the sea was really calm and cool.. The only problem was that the slower swimmers were hogging the front, so i was some sort of ambushed by many.. Hahaz.. It was just a 500m short swim..

Then it was blading time! It was quite dumb that i wore my race chip inside my blades.. Now i got a blue black on the side of my leg just above the ankle.. Then when i thought i had a plan to take the bike form Gregory after his bike leg, the officials scolded us and that made us panic.. Then i suffered another bruise, same leg, maybe 2 fingers apart.. Hahaz.. First time i bruise like one ring sia.. Hahaz..

The sun was just getting hotter as the day went by.. I really salute the guys for running in such a hot weather.. You guys are my idol! Especially Tiong Han man, my偶像! Hahaz...

Okie, now got president's star charity, time to enjoy!! =) This week going to work like a mad dog again.. Just hope that i do not fall sick... Missing my Ianny!!

First Time..

Wha, Ian has finally got enlisted into Tekong!! And this is also my very first time stepping into Tekong!! Did not send my brother off as i had school on his enlistment and POP day... Went inside and it was an eye-opener man.. I guess as compared to the past, now it is in much better conditions.. Went in with Ian's mum.. She damn cool and steady can.. Hahaz...

Ian is in NINJA company!! All the best brother!! Though it is tough, i know you will survive through!! Saw Mr Poh too.. He shall be the pigeon messenger for me if i need to pass things to Ian.. Muahahaz!! Then we had lunch in Tekong and the food was not bad, though some items were too salty... Oh wells, better than combat rations i guess...

After that i went back to mainland and went to meet Nigel!! Have not seen him since my birthday and we just chat.. It was a great chat that we had at the Hong Kong cafe... We tried the Mango Shaved Ice and oh boy, it was really a MOUNTAIN of ice!! Hahaz.. After a while Han Wen came to join us!! Then we chat, talked about FTT and... Hahaz... First time only already kena check, this is call suay man... Hahaz.. Somethings are just not as bad as it seems i guess...

Then Han Wen left for his FTT and Nigel and i chat somemore... I am so thankful to have gather gather with him as he never fails to make me feel so comfortable and take a heavy truckload of shitty stuff off my chest.. I have gained new views and ideas on how to solve some matters and i am so glad i met up with him.. Thanks Gor, the chat sessions and sms has really allowed me to have a new perspective... I know you mean well and care for me, really appreciate it.. =)

My mood is so much better and lightened up now after the long nice chats i had recently.. =)

Thank you..

Thank you all, each and everyone of you guys and girls for making it so possible.. For giving me the best birthday celebration ever..

Charity and Lisa, thanks for being the bestest babes in my life since secondary school days.. Sorry if i was so snappy, i am sorry.. But i want you girls to know that i really love the both of you so much.. No words can express how honored i am to have the two of you as my besties.. My sisters..

Lisa, thanks for the presents.. I really love them, and they really are the PERFECT representation of the both of us! Hahaz..

Charity, thanks so much for the great plot.. Seriously, you should be a director.. Hahaz.. It has made my 20th birthday a BIG BLAST! Most memorable to date.. =)

Ian, thanks for always being there somehow.. And all the baking and cam whoring sessions.. Rock on bro, stay the way you are, cause its cool.. Love ya bro..

Edwin, thanks for lending me your place, even though i made a BIG mess, you never complained.. Thank you for looking after me when i felt so shitty after getting high.. Though i know it was really gross and unglam, you never once left me there to be alone.. I love you, and you know it.. =)

Mr Poh and Syafiq (band), thanks so much for coming.. I really appreciate it.. Thanks for helping me too.. You guys know what i am talking about.. =)

Chen Pei, thanks for being there for me.. As in REALLY.. Hahaz.. I can remember you patting my back, putting ice on my face, taking great care of me, showering me, drying my hair and stuff.. Thank you for being the angel last night, to take care of me.. Love ya babe.. Oh ya, thanks for the present from you and Mr Poh! =)I got new perfume!!


Norman and Joyce, thanks for coming down too.. Love the present! I am sure i would fully utilise it! Syafiq(band) thanks too..


Mark and Syafiq.. Thanks for the Mango top.. It is splendid! Must have cost the two of you a bomb.. Thanks for coming.. Hope you guys enjoyed..

Nigel gor and Delong.. No presents nevermind, what matters most is that the two of you came.. =)


2I(2002) Rocks to the MAX!
May the 6 of us stay close and in touch always yeah.. Life has been great knowing you guys.. I am so honoured that i have been able to share so much great memories with you guys since secondary school.. Let us keep it going!!


Khairul my son, Chang Yuan, Qi Zheng and Samantha, thanks for the earrings! I can scrap one more item on my wish list! Hahaz.. And i really love it.. Thanks for coming guys, sorry if i never entertain you guys..

I am terribly sorry that i became so wasted at the end of the night.. I know it was really gross and unglam.. But i believe you guys and girls will forgive me yeah.. =) This 20th birthday has just been a blast and no words can describe how happy i still am.. I feel so loved by you guys and girls.. I love you all too.. All sorts of different love!! Hahaz.. Think the alcohol still in my blood ah..

Best best best birthday celebration for me ever! Hahaz.. Best surprise factor too!! Just hope that next year, my 21st on 2009/2009, i have the chance to celebrate with you guys again.. Once again, thank you all so much.. I really appreciate all the help, effort and love..

Happy Birthday to ME!

This year's birthday has been a BIG BLAST! 2008, 20th September, 20th birthday.. I really had the best birthday celebration and surprise ever to date.. Thank you ALL for making such a day possible for me.. Here is how the wonderful day went...

Morning
Woke up at 0715 and prepared to go for a jog.. Met Rennie at 0800 and we ran from my place all the way to the end of Pasir Ris Beach and back.. Took us one and a half hours for the run.. Thank you Rennie for running slowly to run the same pace as me and to keep fit together! Hahaz.. Then we cooled down and ate bananas..

Reached home and showered, happily showering myself in the Strawberry Body Polish that i bought from Body Shop and i came out smelling like a strawberry.. Hahaz.. Went to the interchange to meet my grand-aunt and brought her to my place.. Faster change and got ready to leave as Lisa, Charity and Edwin came.. Then we headed out to lunch at Saltwater, a buffet restaurant at Changi Village Hotel..

Afternoon
Was starving by the time we reached Saltwater.. Ian had already reached when i just left home.. Sorry bro, paiseh ah.. When i saw him, i saw a cake box.. Yeah! I immediately knew he baked me something unique! Then when i opened it, this is what i saw....

IT IS BEAUTIFUL TO THE MAX RIGHT? SPECIALL MADE FOR ME ONLY!! SO FEEL THE LOVE CAN!! You SEE the flowers? It is being piped, PETAL BY PETAL! Thank you Ian, thanks for helping me fulfil a birthday wish for me.. =)Thank you for being such a great great friend/brother to me.. You have been a blessing to me.. Keep that wonderous hands of yours going yeah!!

Then we had buffet lunch which was spendid! I really enjoyed the company, food and ambience.. Thanks for coming Ian, Lisa, Charity and Edwin.. Thanks Pa, Ma and Yi Po for coming too.. Of course must extra thank my dad cause he paid for the bill.. =p

Family

Besties

Then it was cam-whore session! Started to take alot of photos, jump here and there.. It was rather unglam, but it was fun and i enjoyed it.. Thank you all for making it possible..

Then we started to head home, dropping Edwin and Ian off.. Lisa and Charity was resting in my room while i was out helping my mum with the misen place.. Then at 1600 when i was about to go with Charity and Lisa to NTUC to get the miscellaneous items, i received a SMS from Mr Poh saying he cannot come as he got called back to camp.. Wha, i was quite upset by the news... But nevermind.. 1 only mah..

Then as we were heading home from NTUC, Syafiq from band called me to say he ALSO kena caught back for duty.. Then i was like, this seems like a joke.. Then he say, he FASTING, CANNOT LIE.. So i told myself, that is true.. Double blow ah.. Nevermind..

While walking home, Nigel SMS me, say he will be late, might not even be able to make it! Wha, that was it, i snapped immediately, thinking to myself, why can't i just have a nice birthday gathering? I was seriously very very very upset..

Just nice Shi Hui called and i went to meet Hazel and her.. They got me a VERY BEAUTIFUL JACKET, with combined efforts from Candice and Swee Kee.. Thanks babes, it so TOTALLY suits me please!! ORANGE somemore! =)Makes me really happy!! Love it PLEASE!!

NICE RIGHT! COOLER THAN COOL!

When i reached home, it was time to shower and get ready to head to Edwin's place.. I was really upset that 3 people could not come.. But felt better when i saw Mark and Syafiq.. Was even happier when Mark made it to OCS! Congrats to you Sexy Stuff!!

Then we headed down to load all the items including booze into my dad's van.. Delong drove down and we headed down to Edwin's place together!! Then Norman called me to say he not coming cause he broke up with Joyce.. I got a shock please and i just told him to take care.. Joyce also not coming, so its 5 people down..

Evening
Unloaded the items and was preparing for later on.. Chat with Mark, Delong and Syafiq.. Then suddenly Lisa went out and Charity came to me, telling me that it seems her mum wants her home.. I was really worried knowing Lisa and Godma having some war.. Lisa was so pissed when she talked on the phone, and the next moment when i went out, she told me her mother wanted her home, NOW.. I was like, does she know i have a celebration and its my birthday? I was so tempted to call Godma but Lisa told me not to cause she is very mad now.. Then she walked back into the house..

I tell you, i was so about to cry already.. It is like, Lisa, one of my bestie got to go? Why? Why can't i have a normal nice gathering with people whom i care for?! Then before the tears came, Lisa came out and say she was leaving, going to take a cab home and see if she can sneak back...

Next moment, i heard popping sounds and i saw Charity and Edwin standing with the cake at the door.. THEN I SAW MR POH, CHEN PEI, SYAFIQ FROM BAND, NORMAN AND JOYCE! WHA LAU! NORMALLY IS I PRANK PEOPLE LAH, NOW I KENA KARMA! KENA PRANK TO THE MAX UNTIL I WANNA CRY SIA! When i was already so happy that almost everyone came, NIGEL popped out from the back and i swear, I SCREAMED AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS.. I think thw whole Singapore might have heard me.. I WAS SO SO SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!

I got pranked by ALL of them and the mastermind is none other than CHARITY TAN HUI SUAN aka PINK CHICKEN! Well, this has made it really a very special birthday celebration with a shock factor of 10, 10 being the highest.. Thanks ah Charity.. Really thank you.. =)

Finally it was time to eat!! Norman was great to volunteer to start the fire and Mr Poh was splendid in being the chef.. Charity and Lisa were of great help too.. =p
Hahaz.. I am so happy that everyone enjoyed themselves.. I hope you guys did? Cause i did, i was really happy..

Bottoms up!

Then after all the food, it was booze time! Hahaz.. Chen Pei started to drink shots with me lah! And by the way, my shot glasses are like double shots.. Hahaz.. Drank with Mr Poh, Chen Pei, Charity, Lisa, Mark, Nigel and Syafiq.. Kena prank again when Charity offered to drink with me.. While i drank Vodka Neat, she was drinking PLAIN WATER! Stupid me..

I think i finished about the a vodka bottle on my own lah.. Was really damn giddy but did not stop.. Somehow, the inside of me was saying go ahead Sheryl, its your birthday and you KNOW you feel like getting wasted for once.. Even though i KNOW i should stop, i did not.. Despite concerns from Nigel and Mark to not get drunk, i still went ahead..


From Prima Deli! Very nice! Love mango cake!!
Then we cut the Mango cake my mum bought for me.. It was Delicious!! Despite being so giddy, i could still walk out to pass Mr Poh, Syafiq form band and Edwin the cake.. Not bad! =)

Was mentally sober, but physically could not control myself.. After getting seated down, i started to lose it.. Could not walk straight, could not stand straight at all.. Horrible man.. Then the next thing i recall, is me puking at the drain outside Edwin's house.. I was really puking everything out man, though i can recall saying bye to Mark, Delong, Syafiq and Nigel.. Can still remember Nigel and Syafiq smoking.. Hahaz.. Then they left and Mr Poh came back with Chen Pei..

I was still puking but was lead back to the house.. Then i puked at the porch which i think about it now, it was really gross!! Edwin transported me here and there, while Chen Pei took great care of me for me to feel better.. Thank you both..

Then i stumbled my way up, was showered, and then i knocked out! Did not even know that Felix came.. Sorry Felix, invite you then i like sleeping upstairs.. Hope you enjoyed yourself.. =)

Woke up in the middle of the night, and had a short but meaningful chat with Edwin.. Finally managed to voice out how i feel, with no barriers.. Under the influence of alcohol, anything is possible!

Thank you all.. the next post is dedicated to all of you.. =)

I WANT!

Okie, i shall make life easier for those who are comtemplating what to get me for my 20th Birthday!!

I Want:

Roy! (Cause he looks really good)
A two way ticket from Brisbane to Singapore and back for my 21st Birthday ( Cause its 2009/2009)
A Cantonese learning book.. Like those you bring to Hong Kong.. Just love the language! (For self improvement, wanna learn the language)A Tiara (For fun, cause i don't think i will win any beauty pageant)
A road bike (Cause i wanna do tri races with my OWN bike!)
An ipod (Cause my Zen SUCKS)High metabolism rate (So i can eat like a pig but not gain the weight)
Dunkin Donuts! (Cause they are even better than Donut Factory or J.Co Donuts)
Nokia 6600 Fold! (Cause that phone is like my old one, but i still love the old one..)
Nice earrings (Cause i look so ah lian in the long ones..)
Great job (Cause i want to love every minute that i am working)
1 Million Dollars (So i can study and my parents no need to worry bout financial)
Great health (Cause i wanna be healthy!)To star in a movie titled "Sheryl is Hot Stuff" or "The life in Springfield" (Cause i miss those great days)
A bouquet of orange roses (Cause i LOVE orange.. But got this colour?)
Freedom for my bestie (Cause she needs it)
Boyfriends for my besties (Cause they both NEED it) - so going to get killed
A birthday cake, baked by a loved one (Cause it is damn sweet)
My brother to be back to be able to celebrate with me (Cause i miss him)
Xue Ying to be back to celebrate (Cause the team is different without her)
Evee to be able to rest and have great colleagues (Cause she deserves all of them)
A trumpet (Cause i can boasts to the Clarinetists and French Hornist that I am the best) =p
All my friends to continue loving and caring for me! (Cause i LOVE AND CARE FOR ALL OF YOU!!)

Hahaz.. NO LAH! Just joking lah.. The bold ones are things i will want to do or get in life.. Just later part in life thats all..

The one in bold and italic is what i ULTIMATELY want for every birthday.. =) I miss all my polymates, cause we have not met up for like the longest period of time.. I miss my secondary school mates cause we all seem so busy in like now and i miss those naive days.. I miss my brother cause i just miss him, feels weird without him around.. I miss my Shanghai friends cause they took really great care of me..

I miss you, cause i don't wanna lose you.. But will i?

Just an update.

Well, last week has been a rather slack week.. Only worked on Tuesday and i fell ill after that.. Think it is the late nights and many mooncakes that i have been consuming.. Was busy doing up Charity's birthday present which i hope she loves it... And soon my birthday will come!! So exciting!! Still remember last year i celebrated my birthday overseas in Shanghai!! The mango mousse cake from Breadtalk.. Hahaz.. Nice gesture from all my internship-mates, but the cake was seriously way too moussy for me.. Hahaz... And i cannot remember is it too sour or too sweet... Hahaz..

The thought of me being overseas for my 21st birthday on 2009/2009 just kinda sucks... Its like i thought i could have a great big party for myself for the very first time, but i guess i will have to make do with the new friends that i am going to make overseas!! And i am sure Xue Ying would be there to celebrate with me... Hahaz... Think so far for what, the 20th birthday haven't even pass yet...

Well, to some people, birthdays are just a normal day.. My parents feel that way.. But to me, life is so unpredictable, you will never know if you would have the chance to celebrate anothr birthday, and even if you do, would the company of family and friends still be the same? Will they still be there for you? So yeah..

Its not about the expensive gifts, nor the expensive treats.. I am just not a materialistic girl and my friends all know that.. What matters most is the fun, joy and love that we all share.. Simple things like a handmade card or even a rock cake (hahaz) is able to make my day.. What matters most to me is my family and friends, and how much we enjoy each others company.. =)

I really miss the fun in secondary school where we would sabo one another.. The 2 birthday sabo episodes i remember the best were my birthday in Secondary 2, and Lisa's and Gim Kai's birthday in Secondary 4.. Secondary 2 was simple, yet very satisfying.. I was baked a cake that, well, did not turn out really like a cake.. Hahaz.. And was splashed with COLD water from the water cooler... It was really simple but great as i had friends around me and i seriously did not expect it...

Secondary 4 was really fun! We used ice cream and water to Sabo Lisa.. IT was damn damn funny!! And i knocked my nose when i slipped!! Hahaz!! Lisa, can REMEMBER not!! We were at the temporary holding school of Ping Yi and we had just finished band and the whole sabo episode started!! Best man!! The only thing i regret is i did not use Durian ice-cream.. Hahaz!



This year, i made presents that would last a lifetime for both my besties as i want our friendship to turn out the same way too.. =) I am so proud of the presents i made!! Hahaz. Discovered the artistic and DIY side of myself...



This week i will only be working 2 days, to cover up for my expenses i am going to spend at the end of this week.. Hahaz... Can't wait for all the gathering action that is going to happen at the end of the week!! Cannot wait for time to fly past!! Wednesday going to hang out with Charity and Lisa!! Yeah!! Saturday going to hang out with bandmates!!

Life just gets better! And i am getting fatter! Hahaz..

AHM 2008

I participated in the Army Half Marathon this year and can i please tell you it is very disappointing to me.. I thought tha the army would plan the event well, but i was so wrong.. Among all the races i have participated in, this is the worst plan ever.. Too many people were flagged off at the same time causing a massive jam, water points were not strategically set up, some water points were too small, the marshalls do not cheer for the runners and it was a massive cluster f***.. But there were some water stations that were great, being well spreaded out, ensuring that runners got their water and stuff.. Some of them can still sing and cheer for the runners...

Maybe i should not judge too much as after all, ALOT of the poor army men are FORCED to take part in this race to either run, be water/aid stations or route marshals... I was so dumb and innocent, that i actually believed that the race tag of these army men would write: FORCED TO RUN... How dumb....


I am so glad and honoured that i had Evelyn with me for the WHOLE 21km!! We burned 1500 Calories babe!! 1400 for me as i ate a Banana Stawberry GU Gel that tastes great! Hahaz... I so felt like giving up at the tar route but you kept me going babe... Thank you so much for encouraging me and always staying by my side, LITERALLY i mean.. Hahaz!! Running with you always give me the inspiration to move on!!! Love ya babe!! You can still help me siam here and there so that we can find space to run... I am so0o0o0o0o0o0o00o0o0o looking forward to running the full marathon with you!!

The worst runners to be with is the Veteran Men... They like a bunch of animals running out of the zoo.. Very ill-mannered and rough.. Bang here, knock there, buah the sweat on you.. GROSS!!

After that we went back to the car to take our items.. Thank you Thomas for allowing us to use your car as a locker!! =) Evelyn and i then went to change and wash up a little... Her facial foam just made my day even better and fresher!! Hahaz!! Then i met up with YOU and we headed back home together!! Missed you so much... The journey home was really enjoyable and funny.. Mostly cause YOU were suaning me! Hahaz... You still owe me a 30sec twister... =p Thanks for sending me back home all the way!

After showering, my family and I headed off to have BAH KUT TEH for lunch!! We went to the famous Tiong Bahru Bah Kut Teh and had a GREAT time!! The food was SUPERB and after running 21km, you are just so hungry that everything tastes GREAT!! Hahaz... Lunch with family is always great and the time spent together is so precious..




Headed home, washed my extremely muddy shoe and then i went over to your place!! My knees were so aching please!! Climbing up and down the stairs really was tough... Hahaz... Plonked on your bed and we both konked out within minutes.. Then your mother asked if we wanted dinner and we went to Ubin Seafood for dinner!!

Food was great and i do reccommend you to try it out... It is at Changi hawker centre there... Dinner was great and your mum is a pleasure as usual... After that we headed back and watched the Olympic Closing Ceremony which was really boring... When it ended, we were both so tired that we knocked out soon after...

It has been a great day and i know i am going to be in great pain for the next few days, but it is all worth it.. =)

OLYMPICS

OMG! This year's Olmpics is ultra exciting please!! It seems that we might have a chance of getting an award in the Table Tennis match... Watching the game now, so exciting please!!! Even though they are not locals, but well, as long as you have the money, you can buy talent right? Hahaz...

I got new idol this year, Feng Tian Wei... She is great man! More composed than Li Jia Wei.... I love them both!! Hahaz... Okie, better get back to the match and pray very very hard that Singapore wins!! Cause we will!!!

AND WE DID WIN!!!

Emcee-ing

Well, i am back at Victoria Concert Hall again last evening to be the Master of Ceremony for the Honour Bands in Concert and Awards Ceremony.. It was a hectic start in the beginning, but managed to end in a good note.. =)


Love the oufits!


Well, Miss Sia and Edwin said i sounded fierce over the mike last week, so i got to sound more warming and happier... Hmmm, up till now i can't really hear the difference, maybe because when i speak i do not listen i guess.. Hahaz.. Well, at least it was really great to hear from Miss Sia that i sounded so much better last night... Its a compliment...

Hahaz.. Another comment that made my day or night rather was from Twang's parents.. Saying i look mature and my English is very good!! Yeah!! Hahaz.. Not possible without the Mango dress and the help from Edwin for the emcee script.. Thank you! =)

So as we were back stage, i was really bored and started to snap snap photos as usual... Hahaz... Had quite a fun night, at least back stage got more people as compared to last week... =)


Geraldine and Me!


Babes of the night..


Hunks of the night..

After the concert, we went for dinner and i had Carl's Junior please!! I can't believe i almost finished a whole burger after the amount of fries that i ate... Hahaz... Guess i was really hungry last night... Then we headed to Great World City Goldden Village to catch THE BLACK KNIGHT..

This is a MUST WATCH movie.. But please go with a clear and alert mind to catch the storyline.. It has many hidden meaning and twists to it.. Girls, Bruce Wayne is SO HOT please!! He is REALLY handsome.. And there is the other good guy too, Harvey... HOT ALSO PLEASE!! Hahaz... It was quite funny that i kept getting shocked during the movie..

Oh wells.. That is about it... Haiz, suddenly miss Lisa and Charity loads... Okie, maybe not suddenly, but for quite a while le... We NEED to meet up babes... Yeah... Need the dosage of the girls gossips and chats... And Ian, i wanna eat strawberry shortcake!! =)

Crazy 2 weeks..

I have been chionging work for the past 2 weeks and i earned about 700 plus.. But as usual, the money does not stay long in my account and i am only left with 500 plus... Hahaz.. So loser right... What is the point of earning money when you cannot save it... Oh wells, should curb my spending already...

My STUPID laptop got problem again.. The same problem where the A button has a life of its own.. So i sent it down for repair AGAIN... FREAKING far can! The both of us just got lost and we were walking under the scorching sun lah!

Anyway, you are finally out after like s0o0o0o0oo freaking long... Though you are out for a long weekend, but we both are like so busy with our own lives that u doubt we would be spending much time together... But i guess its fine, after all we kinda got to get used to it since i will be really away soon... Yeap...

In this 2 weeks, i bought 6 months worth of contacts suitable for people with astigmatism, a pair of heels, a dress cum blouse and 2 sets of bikini!! Okie, the bikini is more of a gift then i buy... Thanks love... Although you know i really don't feel good when you spend so much money on me... But i really appreciate all the things you have done for me so far... Thanks for making me feel that i do matter... Thanks for making me feel valued and treasured for... =) I love you...

This is just a really short update on what had happened for the past 2 weeks... Just working and training and thats it...


Okie, now i have come to the main reason that i feel like blogging today...

Don't know why i am feeling so peeved... Was having a really perfect day till i was waiting for bus 15 home which took freaking long... As usual, nothing to do so i started thinking, then i became so pissed and sore.. Its like, i was suddenly overwhelmed with alot of thoughts and feelings that made me so peeved...

So many things has been happening ever since i came back.. I got to know of information that i never knew... Though these information cut and hurt me deep, i am glad i got to know them... All i can say is that, during the past 3 years in my polytechnic school life, i have made many friends.. Those that care, those that don't, those that i am close to, those that i am not close to... Friends that i trusted so much, and friends that betrayed/abused the trust... I even made a group of 'friends' who posed as friends.. But in fact behind my back stab me like there is no tomorrow... In other words, i made many friends that are hypocrites... Those who SEEM close to you and care for you, but with a different group of friends, they stab you like you are a dummy, cause it does not hurt them a single bit... But it is thanks to these hypocrites that i have learned to accept the fact that me pinning hopes that things can go back to the way they were is just IMPOSSIBLE... It has helped me to move on and get attached to a new group, a group that i should not have detached myself away in the first place... Morale of the story, Friends can turn into enemies, and enemies can turn into friends...

I am sorry if i am so distant away now.. Once bitten, twice shy.. Or should i say twice bitten instead.. I don't know... I just do not wish to get involved, because getting involved = getting hurt... I don't know whether i am a bitch or slut in all of your eyes, but i am really too weak, sick, tired and afraid to suffer a blow right smack in the face again... Picking up isn't easy...

It's through these hard times when i was trying too hard to cope with the change and the information overload that i found you... You never once pressured me to do something that i did not want to do... Even when you felt so strong for us to give it a shot, you respected how i felt and gave me time, NEVER ONCE rushing me to make a decision or to answer you... Thanks love, you are great..

I am glad that i was accepted with open arms back to band to help the juniors.. Not from Springfield, but Ping Yi.. I appreciate the support and chance i was given to come back to help, and feel valued by the members.. My trumpeters, you guys and girls just rock.. Thank you..

The alumni like Mr Poh, Syafiq, Felix, Norman, Zach, Farzana, Chang Yuan, Khairul my son and Qi Zheng... You guys have made it easier for me to pick up and get back in my feet again... You guys might not know it, but hanging out with you guys just makes my day.. Those movie, interrogation and Al-ameen days... Kinda miss you guys cause i have not seen you all for quite some time...

To the best babes and hunk in my life, Charity, Lisa and Ian... You three are just the strongest pillars in my life other than my family... My constant pillar of support no matter what happens... Having my back always and keeping me on track.. Ensuring that i do not land into hands of bad vibes... Just wanna tell three of you how fortunate i am to have besties like the 3 of you.. I love you all... I really do not know what i would do if i lost any of you... I have got your backs to and i will support the three of you all the way, till i land my ass in the coffin... Hahaz...

Evelyn, i have not seen you like for AGES please.. I miss you babe.. I miss chatting with you, telling you how i feel and just sharing with you.. Hope you are doing great right now.. We should meet up soon.. Hahaz... Training for our marathon date?? Hahaz... Take care babe, thanks for providing me with the listening ear even though you are so busy and tired after work... Smiles!!

Okie, as usual, i am still not able to suck it up... Forgive, forget and just let go of it Sheryl... Hogging on and thinking about it will only make you feel more sore, not better.. Accept the fact that you made a decision, accept the fact that it is not going to change.. Choices have consequences, as long as you do not regret it, it is perfectly fine... I REALLY do not regret the decision made, but i am just feeling sore, like a loser...

Cheer up, smiles.. You got more waiting for you then just to sulk.. Move on babe!!

Incentive!

I am being BRIBED by Ian to send them off to Taiwan tomorrow... My reward, Lemon Creme that he made with love...



Entice me...

Eh, Ian and Rennie, must buy tai yang bing, taiwan jelly and pineapple tarts for me okie!! Thanks!!


Tomorrow is going to be an EXCITING and JOYOUS day!! I simply can't wait!!

Great dinner!!

Today's dinner has been s0o0o0o0o0 freking wonderful!! Though it is only the 4 of us, it was great... At first, we were supposed to have Mark, Syafiq, Delong, Ashikah, Lisa, Aishah and boyfriend, and finally me! But in the end it was only Mark, Syafiq, Delong and me!

Went to Oriental to take pay with Rennie then i met Delong.. Has been a while since i met you!! We chat, updated one another about our lives, got him a CD for his birthday prezzie, he treat me to Gloria Jean's coffee which is really good, and we went to the arcade!! Hahaz.. Spent like 2 hours together before we met Syafiq and Mark..


Today is a gathering to celebrate Mark going into army, Syafiq's passing out parade and Delong's birthday!! Hahaz!! We had beer as a beverage..



For food, we ordered beef, chicken and prawn satay with ketupat... Sambal stingray, sambal sotong, kailan in oyster sauce and la-la!! Hahaz.. We ate s0o0o0oo much that we are like so full lah!!

We ate and chat at the same time, was really a fruitful time spent together between the 4 of us... Though we do not have alot of people, but it was good enough to make tonight a great one... Thank you so much guys... I wish you all the very best for your future endeavours... MARK!! Must go into OCS okie?!?!?! This despo here really desperate to go for a commissioning ball once in this lifetime!! Hahaz... Got all my hopes on you brother! Hahaz... Okie lah, i don't be evil.. Just do your very best and i am sure you will be just fine...

I am still so bloated from dinner!! Hahaz.. Have been eating quite alot lately. think gain weight le... Darn!! Hahaz... But it has all been so worthwhile.. Thank you all guys.. =)


LOVE THIS PHOTO!!

My little thoughts...

All of a sudden, this thought came to me... Should i have made the decision to leave in July? Should i have not defer my studies? Maybe if i decided to leave earlier, such a thing would not happen.. Maybe if i decided to leave sooner, we would not be spending time trying to solve such a matter that should not have happened.. Or maybe, HISTORY IS REPEATING ITSELF, that i need to go through this again before i go overseas.. Can't i just have more happy moments before i freaking leave?

We started off as band mates together, then became classmates.. Over the years we got closer, then we kinda split, then we got closer again.. Now, our friendship is being put to the test.. I would have to say that all 3 of us has contributed to what has happened today.. During secondary school days, we were close, but often the two of you cannot go out till late and stuff as you girls have parents who are more strict than mine.. But i totally understand and accept that fact... Hence i usually spend my time out with the band guys... But still, we had many fun moments together be it in school, during lesson, during band or even out of school.. All the bubble tea moments, the days we would compete whose section is better, getting scolded by Mr DELIBERATELY and stuff... Yes, we were having the time of our life...

Then, we all moved on, you 3 went to JC, i was the only one in Poly.. We really drifted apart.. I do not know whether you 2 felt the same, but i felt so alone in this world for that period of time cause i simply LOST 3 of my best friends in a snap... I survived with this for more than a year, then i finally got closer to both of you again... Though close, we do not often meet up...

There are various times when i ask you all out, but due to all of your busy schedule, the plans never worked out.. Lisa, you were really busy with school and your jc besties.. Charity, you were really busy with school and church... That is totally understandable... But after planning and planning, then getting rejected and rejected, i had to admit i felt really sian of planning... If you girls noticed, when you girls plan to go out, i will ask you all to plan then tell me the details... Matter of fact, i was sick and tired of planning, and getting rejected...

But i learn to accept it, and have since moved on.. I KNOW that you girls are busy, so when we can't meet, it is normal, but when we really meet, it is a real joy to me... Before i left Shanghai, i am grateful for all the times you girls sacrificed to be with me... When i came back, you girls strated to be busy wit exams and after that we started to meet up again.. When i was very troubled and down, two of you came to me and gave me the support that i needed..

Charity, you are often busy with your church stuff since secondary school days.. Even though i am not a Christain, i respect your faith in God and the committment that you have.. Often, i would ask you two to go out, but you would have alot of commitments and at the end of the day, only left with lisa and i.. After a while, it became a known to me that you would be busy and i slowly, but UNKNOWINGLY started to forget to call you out as i felt that you would be busy with Church stuffs again... You are also very close to your church friends like Bernice, Rachel and more.. I remember you once told me that no matter how close we girls are, you always feel that they are closer to you.. *BAM* This hit me hard, but nothing wrong right? I mean, you have known them for such a long time, way before you knew Lisa or me, its natural for you to be closer than them... And there was this perios of time when we would plan when to go out and stuff, already confirmed... Then few days down, you would call or sms to say you are busy and stuff and in the end we kena pang seh.. Not once, nor twice, but a few times.. I will admit this pissed me off as i was looking so forward to meeting you all, but the plan has to be cancelled... Because we kena pang seh, only left Lisa and me, so just the two of us go out.. After a while, it became a habit unknowingly..

I am NOT trying to explain nor self-redeem.. I am asking ALL of us including myself to think about how we have contributed to the problem.. I am frustrated that things has turned out this way.. Lisa and I came today, wanting to settle it fast cause you told me before that you like to settle things fast... We called, knocked and waited, but i guess you were just too pissed to reply or call us back..

Whether or not this friendship is still important to you, its in your hands.. To me, it is VERY VERY important, too important that no words can express,.. I WANT to settle things fast, but do you? I have lowered my wall, to apologise and wanting to make an effort to change, would you give us the chance? Lisa and i have so much to say, but are you willing to listen?

I am pissed, yet upset at the same time.. I don't know how i am really feeling, but all i know is that, you, Charity, is not a BEST friend i want to lose.. NEVER.

Lisa, you too, a BEST friend that i would NEVER want to lose..

I CANNOT imagine if i ever lost any of you, can you?